Initially I have lots of things to throw out on this post, but I can't seem able to start..
Alright let's start off describing my attitude.. I'm not a perfect person, I am superbly stubborn when I think I'm correct over something, I don't give a damm whether who u are..
Yes I know this is bad, actually reall reallll bad.. I hate it myself. Tips to get close to me ~ it's better u prove to me that u are correct at the very beginning or else the matter continues, I will just fight till the end.. This is one of the biggest negative part of me which I must give up as soon as possible..
And it's because of this shit, I feel that I'm losing friends.. Yes the ego in me, it's really disturbing..
I have many seasonal friends, they come and stay in my life for a very short time..
True friends are just a few. To make matter worst, some studying abroad, some got attached and you don't expect them to spend too much time on u, cus they have their own life a well..
I can make friends easily but I don't trust someone easily.. Casual talks no problem with anyone under the sun, to share personal problems hmmmm...
Some close friends are not even good listener..
I only believe in myself for the time being.. But yea when someone earns my trust then without hesitation I will share it all.
I just feel I'm lacking of Soul mate.. Someone I can trust.. Yeah.. Thats the right term.. Hmm..
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Happy Vday 2012
So today is Valentines day.. Seriously I have never had any valentines dinner date.. So it's been 22 years celebrating single awareness day instead valentines day.. It's not a big deal, all I want is just to experience this one special occasion with someone special.. Its always that my tweets or facebook posts made it sound like I'm a bloody desperate guy digging for girl.. Everyone just misunderstood me..
The thing is why would people misunderstood me easily? Perhaps I'm just too straight forward.. I don't like something, I voice it out in front ur face.. Like me hate me, there is no effect on me.. Maybe that's my way of approaching towards matter.. I think this is effective, at least I think it is.. Zzz
I would say half of my friends are now attached, some about to get into long distance relationship, some still happily after more than half decades, some still can't get over their ex.. Everyone has their own experiences towards love..
So what is your point of view towards love? What do you seek for in love? What do you want to achieve?
Love need lots of commitment, trust, responsible and I would say discipline as well. To make matter worse, if your partner is intellectual retarded, then u have just welcome the hell of ur life.. Hahah
Like I said, love needs commitment.. If your love is deep enough, all obstacles isn't an issue.. You are committed, you stay, you fight, you protect it.. Talking about my previous experience I had was very bad.. I was fully committed till I couldnt get her off my mind.. The problem begins from backstabbing between aunties of her.. Then came bla bla bla into her mum's ears.. Well till date, I still haven't find the reason of why was I so badly rejected by her family.. Isn't it stupid? I ain't smoker, gambler, womanizer.. Something must be wrong that I have done somewhere without realizing it..
Just to clarify, I really got over her.. Just that I feel not satisfy! Whatever I do, I try to be the best.. Or one of the better ones if not the best..
Good thing is this blog was supposed to be death, no one reads it anymore.. I can just throw whatever I want.. Woolaalaa
The thing is why would people misunderstood me easily? Perhaps I'm just too straight forward.. I don't like something, I voice it out in front ur face.. Like me hate me, there is no effect on me.. Maybe that's my way of approaching towards matter.. I think this is effective, at least I think it is.. Zzz
I would say half of my friends are now attached, some about to get into long distance relationship, some still happily after more than half decades, some still can't get over their ex.. Everyone has their own experiences towards love..
So what is your point of view towards love? What do you seek for in love? What do you want to achieve?
Love need lots of commitment, trust, responsible and I would say discipline as well. To make matter worse, if your partner is intellectual retarded, then u have just welcome the hell of ur life.. Hahah
Like I said, love needs commitment.. If your love is deep enough, all obstacles isn't an issue.. You are committed, you stay, you fight, you protect it.. Talking about my previous experience I had was very bad.. I was fully committed till I couldnt get her off my mind.. The problem begins from backstabbing between aunties of her.. Then came bla bla bla into her mum's ears.. Well till date, I still haven't find the reason of why was I so badly rejected by her family.. Isn't it stupid? I ain't smoker, gambler, womanizer.. Something must be wrong that I have done somewhere without realizing it..
Just to clarify, I really got over her.. Just that I feel not satisfy! Whatever I do, I try to be the best.. Or one of the better ones if not the best..
Good thing is this blog was supposed to be death, no one reads it anymore.. I can just throw whatever I want.. Woolaalaa
Friday, January 20, 2012
2012
Just as I thought I would stop blogging forever, I suddenly thought this can be good place for me to express whatever there is in my mind.
Long time since I last type in this box! Fuish I can imagine how time flies.. Let me see last post was May 2010.. Thats freaking long ago! close to two years.. Who would have imagine that this dead blog will come back alive..
Basically this two years was full of ups and downs.. So many relationships, so many new friends, so many girlfriends, ex, new made enemies (actually not enemy la, people I'm not happy with).. To meet so many people in life is something I treasure most.
I met pilots, captains, police officers, doctors, rich people, poor ones, pathetic ones, greedy, selfish.. So many kinds of people in life! But trust me the very last one u would wanna meet is people who are fake akaTwo faces! This kinda people will lead give u a full of misery life..
2011 was a year that hit me real hard! I was too much into loving someone.. Knowing she is not the right one and yet I still try all sorts of way to keep the relationship alive. I disappoint so many people, my parents of course, my family reputation was even at stake cus of me! How the hell would two individuals love life affect two family and surrounding? Sounds very dramatic but it actually happened on me.. Nevertheless off and on the fail relationship still haunt me.. Technically it affects my confidence level crucially.. Most of the time I loses my focus over something, bad.. But as time goes by, it gets better.. Fortunately I have a supportive family and very strong base of friends that give it all to me whenever needed..
2011 was a light and easy year for me seriously. I went for holidays, relaxing stress free life given by parents.. I can say although I'm not from a wealthy family, but my family is able to afford a child like me and have a car to roam around the town, I feel that my life is blessed..
Biggest mission for year 2012, to get a flying job no matter where and which company it is.. I really want to repay my parents effort they put on me.. From young, I never fail! I was good at sports and above average in studies.. I never like to make my parents to worry about me, not even a bit! My parents are my everything! They gave me shade, proper care, love.. Where I stand today is all their dedication and tender care..
Daddy is strict and fun, sometimes difficult to judge how is he feeling at a particular time, his words are good as gold, too bad
sometimes we do have disagreement.. What to do? 21st century, sometimes it's hard for him to accept stuff which is new. Mama Is the bomb la.. We talk practically everything under the sun.. Most of the time me bully her cus of her bully-ble face.. I mean seriously I love both of them.. little brother is as always being mischievous.. Kinda worry of his study, he is the lazy lazy bump kinda student.. Ayiks.. But still he is my one and only blood brother.. I will try my very best to keep him going in life..
1230am.. Gotta sleep now.. Tired... Will definitely be back to describe what I thought at any particular time line of my life..
Live life everyday like the final day.. Love all serve all..
Long time since I last type in this box! Fuish I can imagine how time flies.. Let me see last post was May 2010.. Thats freaking long ago! close to two years.. Who would have imagine that this dead blog will come back alive..
Basically this two years was full of ups and downs.. So many relationships, so many new friends, so many girlfriends, ex, new made enemies (actually not enemy la, people I'm not happy with).. To meet so many people in life is something I treasure most.
I met pilots, captains, police officers, doctors, rich people, poor ones, pathetic ones, greedy, selfish.. So many kinds of people in life! But trust me the very last one u would wanna meet is people who are fake akaTwo faces! This kinda people will lead give u a full of misery life..
2011 was a year that hit me real hard! I was too much into loving someone.. Knowing she is not the right one and yet I still try all sorts of way to keep the relationship alive. I disappoint so many people, my parents of course, my family reputation was even at stake cus of me! How the hell would two individuals love life affect two family and surrounding? Sounds very dramatic but it actually happened on me.. Nevertheless off and on the fail relationship still haunt me.. Technically it affects my confidence level crucially.. Most of the time I loses my focus over something, bad.. But as time goes by, it gets better.. Fortunately I have a supportive family and very strong base of friends that give it all to me whenever needed..
2011 was a light and easy year for me seriously. I went for holidays, relaxing stress free life given by parents.. I can say although I'm not from a wealthy family, but my family is able to afford a child like me and have a car to roam around the town, I feel that my life is blessed..
Biggest mission for year 2012, to get a flying job no matter where and which company it is.. I really want to repay my parents effort they put on me.. From young, I never fail! I was good at sports and above average in studies.. I never like to make my parents to worry about me, not even a bit! My parents are my everything! They gave me shade, proper care, love.. Where I stand today is all their dedication and tender care..
Daddy is strict and fun, sometimes difficult to judge how is he feeling at a particular time, his words are good as gold, too bad
sometimes we do have disagreement.. What to do? 21st century, sometimes it's hard for him to accept stuff which is new. Mama Is the bomb la.. We talk practically everything under the sun.. Most of the time me bully her cus of her bully-ble face.. I mean seriously I love both of them.. little brother is as always being mischievous.. Kinda worry of his study, he is the lazy lazy bump kinda student.. Ayiks.. But still he is my one and only blood brother.. I will try my very best to keep him going in life..
1230am.. Gotta sleep now.. Tired... Will definitely be back to describe what I thought at any particular time line of my life..
Live life everyday like the final day.. Love all serve all..
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